26 June 2023 link
Half of my aversion to spending time with my thoughts is probably due to the fact that I didn’t even remember what they sound like. Turns out, they’re boring! But I will say I’ve experienced almost no acute anxiety these past two weeks, and part of me wonders if it’s because I’ve been forced to confront any anxiety-inducing thoughts head-on before they take hold and fester in the background of my subconscious.
I think about this a lot. I go through various stages, from devouring podcasts, listening to only music, to getting through multiple audiobooks rapidly. I’ve never been able to find a good balance, especially with silence.